Moving Forward…

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“You’ll spend a lifetime waiting to feel better if you keep putting off all the things you know will make you feel better.”

-Kalyn Nicholson

Hey there, I hope you’re doing well. I’ve done a lot of thinking this week, and I mean a lot. It’s been about a lot of things. I’ve decided that I wish to use this blog, this platform, to spread a message. My message. I know, I already post about my life, but that’s not the point. I am a writer. And that means I create and I would sincerely like to share the way that I see the world with people -with you, the person reading this- on a much deeper level.

So this is going to look like stories from my childhood, snapshots of my life that I think are poetic or matter, poetry for when I have too many emotions, and my views on society. Right now my future looks so bright and full of possibility, and this is something that I couldn’t see for a really long time. I wish to share these parts of me with someone else, to take all of my vulnerable thoughts and moments out of the boxes locked in the dark closet, and put it all out in the open like the messy reality of my room some days. I may also write posts like I used to, with life updates and anecdotes. This blog has been like therapy to me even when I don’t notice it, it is a journal page made up of a weeks worth of journal entries each time a post goes live.

I cannot promise that this is going to be a good ride, or a consistent one. I am a perfectionist. I wish that anything I put out there is perfect and exactly as it’s supposed to be. So sometimes I may not post, and sometimes I may post a lot more than usual. I’m hoping that this is a ride that you -the reader, the reason I am here right now, writing this blog- will join me on this unplanned adventure.

And I hope I can reach out to others, to share this story, my story, with the people who may need to hear it. My favorite writings to read and songs to listen to are the ones that speak to me, the ones that talk about what I have experienced, what I am afraid of, and what I wish I could/will be able to do. If there is a way I could help someone out, make someone feel a little less alone, or educate and open the mind of someone, then I have to do this. This is a calling that I think deep down, I have always known would happen.

This life is crazy, and as much as I love sharing every week of my personally crazy life, there’s more to it. There are always veils that we put up to blind ourselves from the things we don’t want to see, experience, or deal with. My veil is my past, my battle with depression, self-harm, anxiety, trauma, broken friendships, and negative inputs.

So I hope you are strapped in for this wild ride if you should choose to join me on it, and that you can help create conversations about the difficult as well as important topics I hope to write about and share. The one thing I ask of you is to share any and all comments. Let’s start conversations, whether it be below a post in our very own comment section, or sent to me through twitter, instagram, or even email. Let’s share experiences, talk about the stuff we don’t want to talk about, share ideas, let’s create a community. All of the links to my social media are listed under the “Socials” tab on the home page, and my email is listed under the “Contact” tab, but for your convenience, here they are:

Twitter: longdrives_stan

Instagram: longdrives_stan

Email: longdrivesinthedark@gmail.com

I’ll leave you with my excitement and my hope that you are also choosing to tag along on this creative journey with me.

Wishing you all good health and justice,

Stan